Eulogy: An Inevitable End

i suppose i should be surprised that they're shutting down vent. it's been my social media of choice since i was 17, one of the few places that i could be open and honest with myself about both my identity and my emotions, but it was an app riddled with unfixable bugs and errors that once fixed, would result in other issues elsewhere.

it was a place where i could meet other likeminded friends, communicate with the lgbt community, fictionkin, and people with the same mental illnesses i have. i didn't have to hide any part of myself on vent; it wasn't necessary. it's where i met my partner and so many other people i'm now close with.

i should be surprised that they're shutting down vent, but i'm not. it wasn't made to last, and my time on the app wasn't made to last either.

there are other places, other communities. and maybe this is the start of a future in which social media is pushed to the back of my mind, where i can think before i click the "vent" button, where i don't dump all my feelings in a quick one-minute post, and start teaching myself real coping mechanisms and thinking about my emotions before i type something that's easy to say.

vent was a phase, a time in my life where i could say whatever i thought about whenever i thought about it.

but now i'll be conscious about which thoughts i should share and when. it's what i should have been doing to begin with.