2/22/23

tw for mention of feeling sick for those of you who may have emetophobia.

Ok. I have a lot on my mind and I really need to get it out.

1) So I have a boyfriend, right? But lately, he's been so distant. He hardly ever texts me back and he hasn't been at school. I feel like he's getting tired of me. To be fair, I would also get tired of myself. Because of my last relationship, I just feel romantically constipated, and it's really difficult to show affection. I really like him, I do. But I have always felt like he was far, far out of my league. So I'm feeling even worse.

2) One of my freshmen, a boy I've been mentoring since the beginning of the year on the academic team, has confessed to me. He confessed that he's liked me since his last birthday (ie, before he got together with my friend, who I helped set him up with). I don't know how to feel. I enjoy being his friend and I'm trying not to let it change our friendship. However, he's starting to change his actions toward me. I don't want his feelings to change us, but I feel as if it already is.

3) Lately, my health has been faltering. Lately, I have been feeling very woozy and nauseous. Today, during my health class, I felt like my head was full of cotton, and when I finally reached the bathroom I began retching. I blacked out for a moment, and when I came to I was soaked in a cold sweat, laying on the floor. Gross, in so many ways. Mom thinks I might have anemia or hypoglycemia. I haven't had episodes like this since I was a little girl. I hope they get better.