the future is scary but the present is scarier

been thinking a lot about what i'm going to be doing post-graduation seeing as i have about 4-5 months give or take of school left

won't elaborate much purely for privacy's sake but the current place i attend sucks gargantuan doodoo so that's fun - definitely going to be glad to see the last of most of the ppl there

i just wanna be able to balance cutting ties with the people i don't want in my life with keeping contact with everyone i still care about and idk how well that's gonna work out in the long run

eh, who knows, only real way to find out is to just wait and see ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

but anyhow, besides that i'm moreso thinking about destination, i'm not gonna stay in the place i grew up in forever ofc it's just a matter of where (physically speaking) i want to be in 5-10 years time

maybe i'm thinking too far ahead and i should focus on actually getting out of school with good grades first but i spend way too much time daydreaming about a future where i can actually be myself 

i'll figure it out when it's a little less late and i'm not as tired, it's 9:30 over here and i'm gonna be heading to bed within the next half-hour so yyeah

anyhow, don't want this to go on too long so i'll sign off here

bye ^^