my day today 2/19/23

after doing basically nothing most of the day and having almost zero social interaction both online and irl i started crocheting agian and its going SO WELL i'm so happy fr. this is the first project ive done that is actually working, my tension is improving sm and i should be done in a couple hours. My dad also let me order taco bell!! YIPPPEE 

on a negative note i think i got so bored that i got sh urges again *insert skull emoji* i cant find any other reason for me to suddenly feel the urge bc its has been awhile, thats why i tried crocheting again and i rode it out so its all okay! Its kinda lingering tho, like can one urge trigger more urges? idk but i hit one month clean next week and i'm definitely going to be able to celebrate for the first time! X> /srs

ive never kept track of how long i'm clean for bc i either forget or i just straight up didnt plan on staying clean. But since my new ambition of serving the army, i need to prove (pretend ToT) that im 100% sane and mentally healthy aand my body doesnt display that sooo

yeah :> gonna finish crocheting and post the final product later tonight~