10 years from now

i'll be 25 years old. it's really hard for me to predict my life beyond school, but i hope to be living in places big enough to dance in. i say places plurally because i will hopefully be moving around a lot before i find one place to stick to. i will be fluent in spanish by that point so i'll have a lot of options to choose from. my agenda will be to find places and people to make art with: choreography, film, writing and who knows? maybe something completely unheard of. 

i want to teach dance all over the world, i want to write a lot of everything. i want to be all soul and vulnerability, no timidity when approaching situations and making connections. i want to have conversations with all kinds of people and hear all kinds of music. i want to cook for people i love. i want to make my family proud.

when i'm 25 i will still be committed to creating a beautiful life for myself. my intuition will be heightened, i will trust the process more. i will be more forgiving of myself. my perfectionism will be long behind me. i will no longer hold tension in my sternum. i will get along with my little brother. i will shield myself from the terrible people in the world by being assertive and authentic.

i will no longer crave male approval. i will be better at believing in my art. my self value will no longer depend on the way my body looks. i won't overthink simple things. everyone i love will know how much i appreciate them. when i'm 25 i'll be sending warmth and reassurance to myself now.