today,,

I'd like to be more active here cause i think it helps me keep my thoughts together,, today was just kind of a day yknow. not bad not good, had a nice dinner so that was nice. there's a girl i like that i saw today, but i've been feeling so off that i couldn't bring myself to actually talk to her

idk why, i've talked to her a million times but right now it's a little painful to be around her because even though i care about her a lot i'm scared of how things could turn out. i don't know what to do.. so many days i just wish i could enjoy what life has to offer together with her and go places and do things.. but that's a dream. and maybe i just like the idea of her more. idk

think i may go to bed soon since i have work in the morning, unless someone took my shift--kinda hope so tbh, it's difficult to be myself at the moment

no comic work tonight i don't think sadly, but soon. it needs to happen.