how my night went

my so called "adventure" was a total flop. all of maria's friends flaked + i forgot my wallet to pay for a wristband so all we did was walk around in the freezing cold and try to find something fun to do. "we" being me, maria and her endearingly timid boy toy JEREMIAH. that's right! i was third wheeling them!! HA HA HA MY LIFE IS SO SHIT IT MAKES ME CACKLE.

wah wah wah. whatever.

my brain is trying to tell me that it wasn't meant to be, that i don't deserve or that i'm not fated to go out places and live in the moment and be accepted by people. my brain wants me to think it's a sign. well brain, anything's a sign when you're delusional. 

it sucks BUUUUUUT today i had a partnering class in ballet and it was AMAZING!! initially i was really nervous but then i got the hang of it and it was exhilarating. the instructor who was a professional i grew up watching, he chose ME to be the guinea pig so he could demonstrate the combinations!! and i felt so weightless and it felt almost natural. i felt like barbie. when it was done i had the feeling you get after riding a roller coaster. so glad you did it. I SMILE WHEN I THINK OF IT AAAAAND get this: whenever i did well he said "good girl" to me...

...so anyways, today's "adventure" was booty. oh well. tomorrow is another day!