bleep bloop. thoughts

incertanity is just something not really good to deal with, sure, it gives you perspective but how much is enough for you to keep going with things? it is good on some kind of view, however how can we know how to deal with something that was never taught to us? it's just a very untouched topic, and it shouldn't be. maybe if people talked more about it we would face it with a positive way. especially when you're sick, you go on, find a way to cope and leave it aside but when you lose it, how can you feel about it? it makes you go back and process everything you stopped processing when that coping way found the way into your life. it just isnt quite fair when all you did was trying to find ways to stop it and heal, but all you did was falling over again. thing is, it's all out of your control. you can go ahead and try to go change the course of things but it just wont go back. it's like you're trying to and change this line but you just make more fuss and it turns even harder to fix once you marked your presence. it would be cool to change things, but wouldn't we deal with it all over again on diferent circumstances? there probably is a chance it was meant to happen, and it would eventually happen.