11:39pm on February 15th

Today was another busy night at work again. I've been working at the boba shop since 2021 and idk if I can do it anymore. I've been in the food service game for so long that my body is starting to really feel it. I'm scared my back will get hurt again. 

I found out about spacehey thanks to someone in tik tok. One thing I really miss is myspace, there was just something so cool about it. I used to have an online friend on my old myspace. I wish I could get to my old pictures. 

I work with a lot of Gen Z's. I had to ask my coworkers what rizz meant and it made me feel really old. I'm not sure I can keep up with the kids. They're really cool though and I enjoy working with them. 

I can't believe it's already February. It's been a month since my mother passed. it has been the weirdest and also freeing feeling. Back then, I feel like my mom and I didn't get along. It was hard to live there with my mom and brother. Now that I'm almost 30, I've realized how happy I am with my life.

I've only recently realized how cool I am as a person. on paper it sounds pretty vain. However, I spent a lot of time thinking how uncool I was. I feel like if small Zoe could see who I am now, they would be overall pretty stoked. I wear what I want, sing really loud, live on my own, have decent friends. I'm still friends with Julie and she will be my platonic soulmate for life. I have a great partner. I remember when I realized how happy I am to be me. I was floating in the pool with Candice and the sun was setting. It was quiet and the summer air was perfect. I can't wait for summer this year. 

sigh, I have to work early tomorrow and then drown in math homework. I hope to pick up a guitar this week. 

until next time.

zm