So In Love W/Myself It Hurts

So this is what love feels like huh 

Self love

That real shit

The love they romanticize in movies 

The love they condition you to believe in 

It can only be found around you 

Catch 22 

Swift in the style of Taylor 

it’s already inside you!

Trollz said it 

Did you hear it?

Happiness cannot be consumed 

It cannot be bought 

It fails to be taught 

You me and all the lost souls in ibetween 

We slip through the cracks 

Refused to be seen 

But the light 

It cannot be contained 

Reframed nor

Remastered 

Waiting for the disaster 

Self sabotage 

Ghosts create my entourage 

But we not only see the light, 

We feel it 

Happiness cannot not be consumed 

But we can create it 

Silver linings and fantasy 

What’s the difference between you and me? 

Nothing 

That’s what you fail to see 

Self love made me 

See 

So bright 

Yet still so blinded 

Because 

Happiness is a choice 

Much like ignorance 

Self love made me realize that I do have a voice

In fact, it’s enticing 

Singing 

Slicing 

Dicing 

Cutting so thin

Looks like that silver lining 

Five of cups 

Determination 

The cards I pull when I need confirmation 

A simple reminder 

That, 

Happiness is a choice & I choose to be so deeply in love w/myself that it hurts.