im not really a likeable person

ok so now im actually sad

this is relating to the last blog i made

so basically I AM a dumb idiot and yes I knew that already but i kinda took the time to really think about myself and im realizing that i dont think i'd like me either if i was someone else

i mean really im a very unlikeable person 

i barely understand things, and thats probably annoying to people

i always flake on ppl and i hate myself for that ik it sucks to have people flake on you so im sorry that i do it to everyone..

its probably a burden to interact with some1 with mental disabilities so im sorry that everyone has to deal with my weirdness.. after watching attorney woo im realizing how people probably feel about me..

another thing is I don't usually know whats popular and I like things that the majority dont like so im probably weird for that too

im sorry i had to like weird music like k-pop and j-pop

im sorry that i watch shows for little kids

im sorry im not cool

im sorry i message weird

and im sorry i even act like a little kids sometimes

i realize how unlikeable i am

i dont have any likeable traits..

the only good things about me is that im nice

and i tend to do almost anything some1 tells me to do in fear that if i dont do it they wont like me anymore..

why cant i just be good enough 

im sorry i had to be such a disappointment

reminds me of the lyrics in "worldwide torture"  

"I never come second place, always been a big disgrace."

being a disgrace is the only thing I come in first in, its kinda funny.