#9 van weekly update :D

2.12.23

HI ALL!

it's van again back with another update. it's currently 9:12 am and i just woke up like 6 minutes ago. i didn't sleep greattttttttt like it kinda sucked. so i'm still very tired and am thinking of going back to bed. 

the week was pretty normal i'd say good all in all, i've been feeling better overall like not as sad on the daily, so hooray!!! that's very good.

monday i didn't do much of anything, my dad and i started watching titans, he's already seen all of it. it was cool but too mindless for me really to want to continue watching it :P

tuesday, i went to therapy and fencing, as per usual!!! at therapy we did art therapy, so i made weird abstract paintings about my feelings. it was cool. my therapist said i should cut someone off while we were talking but i haven't had the guts to do it yet. i really probably should sooner rather than later. just rip the bandaid right off!!
anyway at fencing we started learning counterattacks and i SUCKED AT THEM like i was doing so so so poorly. i kept just. normal attacking. but it's okay!! i just felt a little embarrassed at the time. 

wednesday, i didn't do anything remarkable to my knowledge. on thursday though, i hung out with my friend gray, which was pretty cool!! we watched the last episode of our flag means death and the first episode of what we do in the shadows, plus a lot of educational content about leftist topics and stuff. cause the plan was to split the time evenly between us, and i picked a thing, and she picked a thing, and so boom!!! the videos we watched were cool i learned a lot. mostly about cuba that makes me really upset. and about whitewashing and watering down the communist beliefs of a lot of important leaders like thomas payne and martin luther king jr. so yeah that was cool!

on friday, i didn't do much either. i'm really sad cause i wanted to go to this cake decorating class but i had decided i had too much homework and didn't go. i asked my mom and she said i should have gone and done the homework later but it was too late :( i really really wanted to go, but i made the silly decision and didn't. so that's a little sad. but i've decided this coming week i shall make a cake!!!! and i shall make it look very pretty!!!
oh, also on friday, my dad and i watched crouching tiger hidden dragon, oh my GODDDD IT WAS SO GOOD!!!! i loved it very much. it had a kind of basic plot but the dialogue and cinematography were sooooo goooodddddd. PLUS THE FIGHT SCENES????? OMG??? so great. THE ENDING WAS SO STUPIDLY SAD THOUGH AND HE DIDN'T WARN ME GAHHHHH I WAS BROKEN. IN HALF. i won't spoil for anyone who wants to watch it but it was just really really devastating and unexpected.

on saturday, so yesterday, the family went to my aunt and uncle's house to celebrate my nana's birthday. i mostly spent time with my little sister, cause i don't really have a lot to say to anyone anymore. i did eat a lot of food though and i said a few witty things that made people laugh here and there. the food was so good bro. my uncle's mac and cheese is super tasty!! i wish he used more cheese though, like he already uses an entire giant block, but i wish he used more hehehe. we also had these strawberry shortcake cousins that were very tasty!! they had strawberry jam swirled around the icing and also in the middle!!!
i didn't get to see one of my cousins cause he's off at college, so i rarely ever see him, and i only barely got to see my other older cousin, cause he was at the gym then had to go to work. 
it was an ok trip!!! it was fine. wasn't horrible. wasn't overwhelming. was a little dysphoria inducing though, but most trips to my aunt and uncle's are nowadays, yknow? i wish i could come out but i just don't think i can.
oh well. the food was tasty and nana gives good hugs. that's all that matters! 

ANOTHER FUN THING!!! is that recently... i've been getting back into tgcf a lot more!! i love it so much!! it means so much to me!! my special interest <333 i'm rereading book 1 rn i'm on the ghost city stuff, so that's really really fun. i absolutely adore it hehehe. i'm doing a full reread actually, so i'm just really excited to get to book 3 again >:D it's my favorite!!
also on my reading list now is homestuck!!!! my friend lance is super super into it, like fully hyperfixated, so i figured i'd read it too!!! they sent me an audiobook so i could listen to the audiobook while i make kandi or something cool. really maximize my time yknow? :D
so yay cool books!!!!! now... how do i convince lance to read tgcf... /j
nah, i looked up how many words were in homestuck, and homestuck has around 500,000 more words than tgcf, which. is fucking insane to me.

today. hmmmm i want to do something, but i'm not sure what. i was thinking of going to the library, or maybe going shopping? but i don't know. i could just do a quick boba run and come back. i know i gotta pack for going back to my mom's tonight, and throw all my stuff in my car, which is no fun. so idk what i'll do today. probably just read and make kandi and play cookie run!! that's always a good choice.

welp, that's it. i'll talk to you all later!! be well and uhhhhh don't do anything i wouldn't do i guess?

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~ laszlo