drunk

I am very drunk; it is a lot. I will make this public, but I really need anyone to know that what I am doing isn't right. I am depressed like hell. My mood isn't the best, nor are the people or the people online. It has been hard because of my stalker and the fact that I had to get rid of my rat. I'd do anything to get my rat back; I truly would. 

When I am drunk, I dream about my rat. It just isn't right. I didn't have papers, but my rat was my savior. I felt alive. When I'm alone now that he's gone, I feel numb and depressed. 

I hope my feelings are valid. Have a good night. 

btw I am pretty drunk.