< Vent >

I genuinely feel like my life will never change, 

I can joke about it but deep down it hurts knowing majority of the reason I’m the way I am now is because of how I was treated by everyone around me and my surroundings. 

Like growing up I don’t remember being so dependent on people or feelings, but now when I look back I see where it sort of began and I’m ashamed that I didn’t have enough strength to push myself out of that headspace. 

To be able to go back and pull as hard as I can to rid those seeds from my insides to stop it before they began sprouting began fertilising. 

I would do anything to change it all.