my answers to the original "get to know me" survey

1) WHAT IS YOUR IDEA OF PERFECT HAPPINESS?
i'd like to have a garden n pets with my partners. it's always spring n there are always butterflies. we're all safe n can eat stuff from the garden whenever we want

2) WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST FEAR?
being trapped in one place too long

3) WHAT TRAIT DO YOU MOST DEPLORE IN YOURSELF?
forgetting everything (happens often). never feeling safe even when there's nothing wrong

4) WHAT TRAIT DO YOU MOST DEPLORE IN OTHER PEOPLE?
close-mindedness and loudness. BE QUIET!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M AUTISTIC

5) WHAT LIVING PERSON DO YOU MOST ADMIRE?
i don't really have a solid answer for this

6) WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST EXTRAVAGANCE?
um. idk i'm really poor. maybe my laptop? it's an asus tuf model but the storage space is definitely subpar

7) WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT STATE OF MIND?
i gotta get the hell out of the united states

8) WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER THE MOST OVERRATED VIRTUE?
awkward question to ask a jew but i'd definitely say faith is the most overrated. you can't follow ANYTHING blindly, that's how you get yourself and others hurt

9) ON WHAT OCCASION DO YOU LIE?
to avoid a punishment that does not fit the crime

10) WHAT DO YOU MOST DISLIKE ABOUT YOUR APPEARANCE?
idk. i think i'd like to be less scrawny but that's more for necessity than cosmetics/aesthetics

11) WHAT LIVING PERSON DO YOU MOST DESPISE?
i have a lot of answers to this but the one that takes the cake is donald trump

12) WHAT IS THE QUALITY YOU LIKE MOST IN A MAN?
responsibility and accountability

13) WHAT IS THE QUALITY YOU LIKE MOST IN A WOMAN?
strength (physical or mental)

14) WHICH WORDS OR PHRASES DO YOU MOST OVERUSE?
"that was intense"; overusing the standing emoji; saying "HELP" when something catches me off-guard

15) WHAT OR WHO IS THE GREATEST LOVE OF YOUR LIFE?
my partners, no contest

16) WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU HAPPIEST?
every single time i hike in the woods but especially in the late summer

17) WHICH TALENT WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO HAVE?
i guess having better empathy maybe. i'm not totally apathetic but i absolutely cannot tell what people are thinking or feeling without them saying it out loud as bluntly as possible

18) IF YOU COULD CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOURSELF, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
i guess i'd just make it easier for me to function with amnesia. i wouldn't fully remove it though; i think it'd be way too overwhelming

19) WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER YOUR GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT?
surviving a lot of shit i probably shouldn't have

20) IF YOU WERE TO DIE AND COME BACK AS A PERSON OR A THING, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
i would come back as a crow without question

21) WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO LIVE?
germany. that's where one of my partners lives and the opportunities there are so much better than in the states

22) WHAT IS YOUR MOST TREASURED POSSESSION?
i'm not sure. i'm rly not materialistic. a funny answer would be my huge trans flag with leon kennedy on it and with the also-huge words "LEON KENNEDY IS TRANSGENDER" on it

23) WHAT DO YOU REGARD AS THE LOWEST DEPTH OF MISERY?
being stuck living with an abuser for any reason (finances, emotional attachment, disability, etc)

24) WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE OCCUPATION?
scare actor

25) WHAT IS YOUR MOST MARKED CHARACTERISTIC?
i'm like a...... creature

26) WHAT DO YOU MOST VALUE IN YOUR FRIENDS?
understanding/acceptance and some semblance of relatability. like, i won't hang out with american right-wingers. yk?

27) WHO ARE YOUR FAVORITE WRITERS?
bad time for you to ask me this cuz i'm trying to broaden my horizons

28) WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE HERO OF FICTION?
ashley joanna "ash" williams

29) WHICH HISTORICAL FIGURE DO YOU MOST IDENTIFY WITH?
what if the world was made of pudding

30) WHO ARE YOUR HEROES IN REAL LIFE?
my partners n close friends

31) WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE NAMES?
i really like the name jeff

32) WHAT IS IT THAT YOU MOST DISLIKE?
people that would lie about being bitten by a zombie in the apocalypse

33) WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST REGRET?
not being able to hold down a job for very long even though it's not intentional at all

34) HOW WOULD YOU LIKE TO DIE?
something that isn't super lame. like, there needs to be a cool reason for me to have died but i'll also take "old age" if i don't die of something super cool before that

35) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
"i'll keep all my emotions right here and then one day i'll die"

; imposing arsenal.