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I think I'm finally getting over the boy I like but wow he has me on a chokehold

he's so nice and funny everytime I think about it I get this funny feeling in my lower stomach, like when you're on a rollercoaster and it drops and you can feel your stomach shift. it makes me want to fall over anytime I see him

when we were closer and hung out he would always bring me away from the street side of the side walk. he was so gentle with me 

I found him handsome, cute, attractive, hot, and every other adjective in the English language. I'm not sure if there any words out there in any language to describe with perfection how I feel about him, for now I settle on "in love"

when he's in my proximity I can't help but stare, my eyes just naturally drift over to him. I can barely think when he's in the same room. when I see him smile I want to cry because it's so beautiful. I'm tearing up even as a write this now

I wish I could give him my everything; my heart, my soul, my vulnerabilities. anytime I write or speak about him, there's always more to say. he lives in my mind like an infection, surrounding me constantly like a faint cloud

it's so unfair that everyone around me can experience his company and take it for granted. nobody knows the things I'd do to just even speak to him again, every conversation is buried deep in my heart and gets replayed every day

I hope he never has to experience feelings of loneliness or doubts if he's worthy for love because he will always have my love. I want to shout it to the world, I have so much pride in my love but what I want most is to whisper it softly into his ear for no one but him to hear