Just a silly first rant/diary/ blog thing iidk

ii'd really love to use this space as a way to get stuff off my mind. Living in a place like this, where you aren't allowed to be free, to be who you are, it gets difficult...

Especially since you feel so alone all the time and you just bottle up everything. 

At some point its gotta explode right?

Alotta nights ii just sit in my room in the dark, the faint sound of the AC in the background. Just frozen. Not because ii'm scared or somethin, ii'm frozen cause ii'm completely overwhelmed. At every corner theres just more and more sadness. 

The few friends ii have left tell me to cheer up, that it'll get better...but how much longer can you hold onto words like that?

It starts of as a rope, and time after time, that rope gets frayed until its nothin but a string... 

Sadly, that string is gonna snap, no matter how much you hope that it wont. 

Again, ii'm not sure what ii'm doing here, ii may just type this out and then delete it, ii may delete this account thingy if possible, who knows, but if ya stuck around to read this silly rant all the way up till here, thank you! You're kind and ii like you :3

ii hope you're having a better time than ii am friend!

Until the next one (maybe) heh

lotsa love

Lexii<3