The Pressure Around School

Lately it has been really hard for me to focus on my schoolwork. Simple things like taking notes or paying attention to a lecture cause me to zone out or nearly panic under the sudden wave of stress. Most days all I can think about is writing a song or playing music with my band. When it comes down to homework all I can seem to do is doodle small mindless drawings and bury myself in the world of stories sung by the musicians I listen to. This lack of focus and overbearing stress around school has caused my grades to drop to the lowest they could possibly be.

I'm not going to be that person to blame the school system and leave it at that. In fact, the pressure surrounding school is caused by multiple factors.

1. I recently went through a really tough falling out with someone who I considered to be my "best friend"
2. The subjects I'm learning are not interesting or helpful to me as a person
3. The past few weekends have been large piles of stress and a lack of sleep
4. My brain is permanently switched to "musician" and "guitarist" mode
5. I need a break from work and the amount of school days isn't helping

I know I will not graduate and I know that the jobs that I am best suited for are all based around creativity, but that isn't going to stop me from trying to better my own grades at the moment. As soon as this wave of stress subsides, I'll be able to call it a night. Until then, I'm relying on a guitar, my band, and an upcoming song to keep me looking towards the future.