not okay for some reason:((((

hiiiii!!!!! idk if this is like,,,oversharing but i js need to get my emotions out somehow lolz i've been having a TON of anxiety lately like i always have anxiety but lately it's been super bad:(((( i go back to school tomorrow since today was a teacher work day and for some reason im dreading it???? i js can't shake this bad feeling. i also haven't really felt like myself recently, i feel like my body is js on autopilot throughout the entire day and then at night i look back on the whole day and think ‘wtf was that’ idk if that makes sense 😭 i need to cry but i js can't and it reallyreallyreally sucks ( that was cringe srry😭 but yk what i mean;P ) i js feel like i don't have anything to live for anymore. the meaning behind the phrase  “tomorrow is a new day” gives other people hope but it js fills me with dread and anxiety like,,,,i have to do this shit all over again everyday until i die?😭😭😭 idk:///// i’m about to go to bed rn. i'm listening to the scene one version of if i’m james dean, you're audrey hepburn to ease my anxiety enough to fall asleep and it's kinda helping lolzzzzz if anyone reads this thank u ^^ thank u for taking ur time to listen to ( or should i say read xD ) me rant. goodnight ^^ <3<3<3