February 6th 2023

I finally did it.  I finally told my father how I really feel about my job.

I told him, "In all seriousness, I'd rather kill myself then continue to work there."

He told me that he was a bit sad that I wouldn't be working with him anymore but he wouldn't stop me from leaving.  The only catch was that he wanted me to have a job set up first.  I started applying to more places; some part time some full time.  If I'm going to be going back to school I need to be able to have time for school.

Other than telling my father how I really felt, today was a bit of a let down.  

I had half the day off as I had an interview scheduled but cancelled it in an episode of fear.  I still took the time off since I didn't feel the best.  

My day started with Theo calling me because our boss forgot to tell him I had half the day off.  He must've been annoyed with me since he didn't really talk to me for the rest of the day.

Before I had to get ready for work, I finished the lyrics and ukulele chords for a new song.  I know I said that I would be focusing on bettering my older songs but the idea just came to me and I had to write it down.  I showed my friend the song after I got back from work and he said that he really liked it.  Together we named it Violeta, which is Latin for violence.  It's named that after the seventh layer of hell in Dante's Inferno.  

I wasn't home for long as I had to go to my electrician's class.  I was hoping to be able to spend some time with my lover but he got off from work later than usual and we were only able to spend maybe ten minutes together.

The class was long and boring.  I spent most of the class doodling on my folder as I didn't really care.  The professor just wouldn't shut up about his own life.  I hate it when teachers are chatty and don't keep track of time.

Hopefully one of the places I applied to will contact me tomorrow; if not I'll call them on Wednesday to check in on my application.