♱ just thoughtz /vent ♱

sometimes you just need to let things go.

sometimes i can't control my decisions, or i think that so i can feel a little better. relying on my bpd or adhd or c-ptsd - whatever hits in the brain, just so i can feel better. letting go of people is hard, but then you realise she never really wanted to be around. or she was just pushing you away for funz or smthn else.

sometimes i judge people i know for people-pleasing or lying to look cooler ig, but they be lying so much, trying to hide and change who they really are. they are good people, but they still do this. trying to lie so he likes you, even if you don't like things that he likes.

sometimes you just need to let things go.

i know i fucked up, but you are not the victim in this situation, maybe a fool, or manipulator, but not a victim. bffr.

and creating this mess won't slip without consequences. people know when you lie, or they will find out.

in the end i will close my eyes on all of that because i still love you. but i know you've tried to do an awful thing behind my back and i won't forget that. maybe it comes from weakness and insecurity, or maybe it's out of spite and anger. i don't really care.

or maybe it's my fuhking bpd again and i'm imagening stuff.

sometimes you can't run away.

i hope she remembers who also helped her to get up except herself.

ugh my grammar suckz 

 xo, mor.