happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time

i'm 22 today. to borrow more words from ms. swift, how can someone know everything at 18 but nothing at 22? except it feels like i knew nothing at 18, and now at 22 i know even less. it's a hedge maze with no way out, the vines crawling up and out and around, choking me into standing in place. no exit! no exit! you're here forever. where do i go from here? what do you do when all the work was for nothing? i never should have majored in this. i shouldn't have followed my hubris. i am not better than the people i knew in my adolescence. it's miserable and magical, oh yeah.