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Im doing okay. I haven't been depressed in weeks. I don't know if I'm doing okay because I'm ignoring my problems or not. It's confusing and doesn't feel real which is heartbreaking, to be honest. It just shows I forgot what real happiness or Love felt like. Sometimes it feels like a dream. I've experienced happiness in dreams waking up disappointed in reality. I'm used to feeling okay for a short while before everything turns to shit. But something inside me is telling me this time would be different. I feel like my brain is blocking out my problems. I know theyre there but i cant feel them.