1/28/23 On a more positive note

I kind of disappeared haha

Anywaysss that comes with some good news! My past blogs r super depressing bcuz I’m a super depressed person but I’ve actually been in an ok mood because I got a laptop! It’s a crappy old family laptop my mom gave up to me (2014 toshiba and can barely run anything) and I downloaded vocaloid, Utau, fl studio and the sims! Ive been all over this laptop 4 days which is why I vanished. Literally all I can think of in school is “I wanna go home and play on my laptop” Ive literally been skipping after school 4 it which I probably shouldn’t bcuz I have stuff I need to finish after school but one day I had a mental breakdown there and dissociated so I dont rlly like going anymore. Also update on my grades Im failing Spanish too agagagagagagagggghhg but I dont even care that much bcuz all I can think is laptop but no I actually wanna put in an effort to fix my grades just adhd thingz fucking me up yknow. I also have a debate on Monday and I’m rlly nervous (dont even know y I ever signed up 4 debate I have SERVERE social anxiety but I enjoy it bcuz my partner is there teehee) but yeah that’s basically it. Gonna go back onto my laptop (I have a problem)