My name is Mari :3

Haii I'm new to all of this, I never had Myspace before or anything so I'm pretty confused about custom HTMLs and CSS Codes (⁠-⁠﹏⁠- ;⁠)

I'll probably mostly post about myself, my dog, makeup, and fashion, and what else comes up in the future.

Nothing too exciting really, yet I've always wanted to start a blog. So I'll basically just be sharing my thoughts and experiences, which might not always be family friendly haha.

I'm currently in a two year college program, since the highschool i graduated from and the nearby community college I'm in had this partnership. Without it I probably wouldn't have gone to college..

I had no real goals career wise and I honestly don't have much talent that I could monetize, so I felt like there no point in going to college and wasting my family's money. Yet when the guidance counselor at my school reminded me about the program I figured I might as well go, since it'll fet my mom off my back about my education and all.

At first I thought of becoming a registered nurse, yet my Bio Lab class was hell, and the Lecture ass was confusing af too. After a lot of thinking I thought of becoming a social worker, yet apparently they often are way underpaid. So then I decided becoming a therapist suits me the most, and I feel more relaxed?? In a way after deciding what to do with my life career wise.

College is waayy better than highschool, I'm also allowed to go out more than I used too haha. I often go to malls, markets, or Chinatown. Anywhere that isn't home really haha, I feel like I'm finally having teenager experiences.

I am sad and regretful how I never really had any earlier, due to my mom never letting me go out, and the few friends I wanted to hangout with the most weren't able to go out as much either. My mom blames the borough we live in, yet I still got cheated out of most of my childhood and teenage years.

I've been happier since I started going out, though not always since I had some abuse boyfriends at the time. Though I'm not exactly used to being single now, it's better than being in an abusive relationship that drove me crazy and increased my instability.

What I'm especially happiest with is the freedom to dress how I want, I don't think I'll ever really forgive my mom for not raising me the way she should've.

I had to teach myself hygiene, hair/skin/body/self-care, makeup, styling, mental health, and so much more.

I felt so ugly and unloved growing up.

Yet now I'm so much better, I'm still growing and healing. Though unfortunately there are still scars and the memories and experiences will always hurt, that's just how impactfulness works.

Anyways, my name is Mari :3

Hope y'all are doing ok.