🖤nocturnal hallucinations🖤

i speak my mind into existence

what’s on my mind is never pleasant

it haunts me and kills me

it tears me down and rip me apart

i am tired of speaking my mind

it’s always too much or too little

never enough, never right

i wish i can rip them from my throat or straight out of my heart

but they tangle around my neck, they kill me

staying silent hurts me but speaking cuts me like a thousand blades

i just wish i was able to tell you how i feel

with you slipping away from me

i clutch my hands on you like a bird about to fly and i put you close to my heart