01/26/2023

HAI!! WELCOME BACK TO MY BLOG!! SORRY FOR NOT POSTING YESTERDAY, I GOT KINDA STRESSED OUT SO I DIDN'T HAVE THE MOTIVATION TO POST ANYTHING ;w; ALSO.. HAVE I TALKED ABOUT HOW MUCH I LOVE CALL SECURITY?? THEY'RE LIEK.. MY FAVORITE BAND. THEY BROKE UP IN LIEK 2017.. BUT THEIR DISCOGRAPHY STILL SLAPS SO. LISTEN TO THEM :) IF I HAD TO DESCRIBE EM... THEY'RE LIKE POP ROCK? I GUESS? I DON'T LIKE LABELING THINGS WITH GENRES AT ALL BUT I KNOW THAT MAKE IT EASIER FOR SOME PEOPLE :'3

THANKFULLY MY STRESS WASN'T TOO MUCH TO WORRY ABOUT. I WAS JUST GETTING REALLY CLINGY WITH MY BF AND WANTING TO TALK TO HIM AND ANY MOMENT WHEN I WASN'T TALKING TO HIM I FELT RLLY DRAINED. SO NOT STRESS BUT LIKE.. EH. IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE IT. I GET LIKE THAT A LOT AND IT'S RLLY ANNOYING. I'M LIKE A LIL SAD PUPPY WHO NEEDS ATTENTION ALL THE TIME FROM HIM. HE'LL BE WORKING LONGER HOURS SOON AND THAT'S GONNA BE RLLY :[. I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT A WAY TO DEAL WITH HOW NEEDY I GET. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND I WANNA BE AROUND HIM ALL THE TIME AND BE RIGHT BY HIS SIDE. I WISH WE WERE TOGETHER IRL. WHEN WE WERE I WAS BASICALLY STUCK RIGHT NEXT TO HIM THE   W H O L E   TIME.

WE MIGHT SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN SOON ACTUALLY WHICH I'M RLLY HAPP ABOUT!!! ONE OF MY FRIENDS FROM SCHOOL TOLD ME ABOUT THIS RLLY COOL CON THAT TAKES PLACE IN THE AREA AND THE NEXT EVENT IS IN APRIL. MY BF IS GONNA ASK HIS FAM IF HE CAN COME OVER FOR A FEW DAYS TO GO AND IMMA ASK MY FAM IF HE CAN VISIT HEEHEE. THEN... I'LL PROBS GO OVER TO HIS PLACE A MONTH AFTER TO CELEBRATE HIS BIRTHDAY AND OUR TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY (IF I'M ABLE TO </3). MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO DO THE LATTER BC OF HOW MUCH DRIVING THAT IS (WE'RE LIKE 3 HOURS AWAY FROM EACH OTHER AND EVEN HALF WAY IS A LOT :[).

I SPENT THIS WHOLE JOURNAL ENTRY GUSHING ABOUT HIM.. WHICH HE'S PROBS GONNA FEEL FLUSTERED OVER. HE'S KINDA WEIRD.. FOR A LONG TIME HE THOUGHT THAT HIM BEING FLUSTERED AND IN LOVE WAS ANGER BECAUSE THE FEELING WAS OVERWHELMING AND HARD TO CONTROL xD. THAT'S SO CUTE TO ME LIEK. GOSH I LOVE HIMMMM =3 SORRY NOT SORRY FOR BEING ANNOYING AND GAY x3