dreamt of you

I saw you last night in my dream, it's been so long since Ive seen you. It was so real I thought you were right in front of me, you were no different than you always were; you made me smile. I thought you looked beautiful. As I woke up I desperately tried to cling to sleep, desperately I wanted to go back to you. Waking up next to someone else only left me searching for you. Its been so long since we have even spoken, who knows if you even love me anymore. I know no matter what my love will not change, no matter how far I go or how well I do you still cling to my heart like an abscess. More than anything I want you here, to hear your voice and to feel you in front of me. There is no way we may even ever see each other again, I still have an unspoken love something I could never speak on. You broke my heart in my dream, because I knew you still loved me. I could feel you still loved me and even know as I write I am afraid to seek you out. I miss you everyday and everyday I know you would be proud of me. Nothing heals this pain in my heart not months, weeks or even a year later you still haunt me everyday. And my soul is broken, nothing anyone can fix. Heroin would not even help the pain, all I want is to fall back into sleep and lay with you one more time.