⇢ ˗ˏˋ TW// mention of ED and SH//There are also photos ࿐ྂ

I hate myself so fucking much ,, why did i eat that ? was it worth it ? was those few moments of happiness worth the cals and fat that will be on my body tmr ?

Why cant i just not eat ? I mean its simple really just starve ,, but i have a brain that wants my body to survive so i eat, I dont need the food i rather be skinny.

So i punished myself i had relapsed and it felt good this time i wont fail myself i will fast for a whole week then treat myself thats if i lose some weight.

I also purged after i ate i wonder how much actually came out ,, i hope all of it tbh.

I wish i was born skinny and that when i ate i never gained weight i would be so happy ,, but instead i gain weight and you can tell..

I wish i was skinny and pretty to the point where people are worried for me because of how sick i look ,, i want people to be able to put their whole hand around my arms and thighs its my dream.. but it will only happen if i dont eat ..


i want to look like this so fucking bad ..