thoughts on special people & children & my new year's resolution

abundantly grateful for the special people in my life that I so graciously get to call my friends. I know none of us are perfect but we r all children of God and children arent perfect but we love them and care for them anyway even when they're messy or loud or even mean to each other. 

working with young children last year was such a profound and near-mystical experience for me and I miss it every day, I look forward to returning. It was at a time of serious inner dissonance and turmoil but for some reason looking into the wide wet and loving eyes of a toddler every day did something to my heart and my mind that nothing else could.

I make an effort each day to take count of my relationships and the special people in my life and when I do I cannot help but take a deep breath and humbly and reverently offer myself to them because when I have my friends, I am rich. When I have my lover, I am rich. when I have my family, I am rich. when I have the children, I am rich. and when I have God, I am rich. 

I am not the perfect friend or lover or daughter or teacher or student, but I have faith in myself because I have faith in others. I am unbroken by cynicism or nihilism even when they come to knock at my door dressed up as obvious things. Because I live richly and prayerfully I know that love is here to stay. 

My new years resolution is to become a better devotee of the important relationships I have in my life. I want to be a better friend in the ways I know I can be. I will be forgiving and gracious and faithful and sincere. Logistically speaking, I will stop being such a flake like I always have been, and actually make the effort and time to regularly be with my loved ones, my friends and my family.

I'm starting to recognize that doing this also comes with the challenge of finding balance. How do I make time for others and also leave pockets of time for myself? How do I balance rest and activity? How do I manage my time between people?

Anyway whatever. IF u read this thank u its very long and like a little diary entry and also, most importantly, thank you for being my friend.

professional sillygirl OUT......roger that..