Last week

Last week sucked, was more moody and triggered easily? Idk why or what caused it half the time. Ran away from home with no phone or sayimg where i was going for about an hour. I hurt the person i love and i didnt mean too. Ill be in a rage fit and im self aware of what im doing but the more i try to calm and rationally think i get more angry? Its like im riding passager as i watch what i do. Some small progress though, its not much. Instead of going into a rage fit, i just turned my emotions off until the situation was better. Yeah its not good to turn them off but if i dont feel anything i can talk and not get into a rage fit. I hope this week is better.