2023/01/20 1:02PM

i havent gone to school at all this past week and i feel fkn guilty about it.. skipping school always makes me feel guilty even if its just one day even if its for a good reason. but this time i dont think it was for a good reason, i havent been going because i think its because im really fkn lazy.. or depressed. either way i really need to go to school next week or im gonna guilt myself to death

also skipping school makes me feel like i dont deserve anything too? is that how it's supposed to be? is that normal? it makes me feel like i dont deserve to eat, be happy, go outside, even just live; makes me feel like i dont deserve to live. it makes me feel like i should be suffering and hating myself . is skipping school really that bad since it makes me feel this way? it feels like a crime. and ik maybe u might b thinking "just go to school and u wont feel this way" but i dont even have the will to live, no will to do anything. i just want to go to sleep and never wake up again. if i have no will to live i clearly dont have the will to get up and go to school either.

 idfk what to do with myself and i hate how my life is rn and i do want to get better but i feel like i dont deserve it