a vent

No matter how happy a person may seem, inside they might be dying mentally and physically because of all the things they have gone through in the past. they try to forget but it always comes back to them some way somehow, to the point where everyone around them makes fun of them for it and joke about their trauma, and make them angry so when they try and express theirself they make fun of them for liking or wanting to do something, so now they can't do what they love because the people around them don't like it and make them feel childish or dumb for liking it. and when they get mad and lash out at them everyone calls them the bad guy, they call them the monster for being rude, mean and too serious. and when they try self harm to try and make them feel better everyone now suddenly cares about them, because they resulted to harming theirself, but remember they don't actually care about them and they are only acting like it. they remember how everyone treated them and don't want to live anymore because of them so they try to harm theirself more and more till they kill theirself.