L00K1NG BACK

This is a vent and it is 3 am so i am not even going to try and edit this. also mentions sewerslide

I fucking hate her how fucking dare she let an inocent child get mercilisly ridiculed and bullied by a grown ass adult. all of my fucking life all i heard was how bad of a person i was and how id never amoun tot anything. she fucking called me bipoar to my face and then refused to get me a person to talk to. MF this bitch watched as i locked myself in a room for 4 months, just waiting for the next person to snap. My friend commited fucking suicide, my cat dies, my dog died, and my grandfather died one after the other and i cant fucking take it anymore. I had to go move to my dads place. everyone here is a complete stranger and i hate it. I barely know my own sister anymore. My birthday is coming up. I am turning 18 and everything is just now crashing down around me. Nothing makes sense anymore man. I am getting help but i just feel like ill always me that stupid little angry child that cannot grasp of time. Everyone i grew up with all ended up a shitty perso, dead, or emotionally unavailable and i cant stop feeling like it all my fault. I have new friends now but there all too nice to me. i barely talk anymore i dont get it. Man sometimes life just sucks ass. hopefully things get better i dont want to feel like this anymore. the guilt is too much. 

Tue. Jan. 17, 2023