i love him

i love him so much. hes drawn hearts in my favourite colour on his cheeks and hes singing and dancing. hes not a good singer, nor is he dancing properly, but with every word and movement i fall more in love. today is our 6th month mark, not a huge deal in the grand scheme of things but its so lovely to know we've been together for half a year. im so in love with him. i think ive loved him, or atleast knew i would love him since the first time we spoke properly. he is utterly perfect to me. i know thats bad, i know i shouldnt label someone as perfect because nobody is perfect, everybody is flawed. but to me, despite his flaws he is perfect, his flaws dont change that. at all. he makes me the happiest person in the world and i know that this will be the most painful breakup or the most beautiful wedding someday. without a doubt, i love this beautiful, beautiful person more than i have ever loved anything or anyone else. more than music or books. more than anything. hes dancing and singing to legends by twenty one pilots and it just melts my heart in the best way possible. there are no words or actions that could ever describe or show how much i truly express how much this 16 year old boy means to me. he makes me feel alive. i didnt know id be able to feel that again. i thought id lost the part of me that could feel so vibrant and electronic. when he says my first name with his last, it makes me so hopeful that one day his last name will be mine. i want to marry him someday, i want to marry him so badly. i want my entire future to be with him, id do anything to feel this way about him in 10 years, his arm still around me and his heart still beating alongside mine. i know that things change and in a month, a year, however long, my mind could change and i could fall out of love but if i could feel the way i do right now for the rest if my life, i would, and i hope i do. hes the first thing i think about when i wake up and the last before i fall asleep. every love song makes sense because of him. he feels like poetry. he feels like heaven. he feels like home. his skin on mine feels like fireworks and his laugh lights up the darkest parts of my mind. i would go to unnecessary lengths in order to make him smile. his smile makes me feel like my heart is bursting with colour when i thought that it had turned a dark shade of grey. not a day has passed in these 6 months of glory days where this drop dead gorgeous boy hasnt made me smile, laugh and feel like i have bats swarming my stomach. i love him such mostest. all the miles between us mean nothing when he means the absolute world. i would travel those miles on foot if i could, every day. he could drag me through hell, if it meant i could hold his hand. (yes thats a bmth refrence) and he has all of my heart. he has given me opportunities that i never thought id have. ive travelled to another country just to hold him. ive spoken about him to anyone who will listen. ive looked through the hundreds of pictures we took together every time i am sad and it makes me feel better every time. i have cried so many tears over the distance between us and forgot to breathe when that distance was closed. i became a better version of myself within a week of knowing him. a happier version. a version of myself that had been long buried under the years of unfortunate situations id been through. the version of myself that finally felt safe. if only he knew how much he genuinley means to me. if only he knew i wasnt joking when i say i want to marry him. if only he knew i meant every 'i love you' with every part of me. if only he knew that with ever breath he takes i fall more in love, even the breaths im not there to experience with him. he is the most beautiful person i have ever had the pleasure of laying my eyes upon. not only is he beautiful in appearance but he treats me like im royalty. he treats me better than anyone ever has. i could list every reason i love him, but i would never stop talking, so ill end this with these words:

david, you mean the world and more to me. i love you such mostest. you make these days my glory days. you are perfect to me and if you saw yourself the way i see you, you would never doubt yourself again. i love you.