if i where a super natural entity id be a ghost

I feel so invisible and while its not always bad because i really enjoy being by myself not having to care abt how ppl perceive me its also very lonley. My friends barely reach out to me, im never someones top 5 im always an associate of some sort and i guess im just the type of person that ppl forget easily. I rlly look up to the ppl who are ok with that and found a way to not care. I've never coped with not fitting in anywhere and theres ppl out there that couldnt care less about fitting in and ppl caring about you and i admire that so much. I feel like a hybrid human ghost lol.