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i've been trying to add some updates to my website -- i'm using the old neocities page i had, now that i have a proper domain, like a live code demo. because i'm too lazy to figure out how to make a "real" live demo and y'know what man, work smarter not harder. who gives a fuck how i do it, if it works for me?

that was aggressive. i did not get anywhere near enough sleep.

anyway speaking of not getting enough sleep, i'm trying to figure out how to give myself the motivation to actually finish what i started in terms of updating my site and it is just. not happening. i think it's wholly because i didn't sleep enough, but that's not an excuse -- i have work to do. tough luck, kid. but! maybe i'm too hard on myself.

all i really wanna do is just like, crawl back into bed and play stardew valley. i've gotten really into that game, i don't even entirely know why? it's like cities: skylines, i could literally just sit there and play it in complete silence for like twelve hours and not get bored. it's something about the monotony of maintaining something, i think -- it's like cleaning, or taking care of my frog/bugs. it's a ritual task, i know exactly what i'm supposed to do and how i'm supposed to be doing it, and it's just stimulating enough to keep my attention without being overstimulating.

man, you really can fucking tell i come from a family of mechanics, can't you?

anyway yeah, i have to at least try to get some form of work done today. whether it's posting something on instagram or finishing the updates to my site, i have to do something. one task a day, rome wasn't built in a day but they were laying bricks every hour, etc. etc. etc. i am exhausted

sleepily yours,

-patch