being seventeen has got to be the best shittiest funnest year of your life

jan 14/23 

I turned seventeen a month ago and It's really kicked in on how close I am to being 18. It's really terrifying but also really exciting.

I mean, on one hand, I'm still in school and doing really stupid fun stuff to kill time, and on the other hand, the pressure to succeed in everything is (not-even-close-to)-gradually increasing the closer you get to your next birthday. I know that realistically not much will change; just my responsibilities, people's expectations of me, and the fact that I actually have to start thinking about what I would want to do for the rest of my life-- you know, breezy stuff. (I mean, I don't even have my basic learners license yet. So right now I'm kind of pressuring myself to get on with it and just take the test. ) I know it's not like things will change immedietly, but the point still stands that there are lots of pressure internally speaking. 

I'm in grade 11 right now, which means in the middle of my last year of highschool I'll have already turned 18. One problem with that is that now I can legally buy my own weed and alcohol. That may pose a problem if I don't manage to control myself, but I'm really trying to buckle down this year and try not to be too irresponsible... 

My goal is that I'll be able to get my learners by March, so that I can start practicing how to drive by the time summer comes. I also need to start placing my own appointments for shit, so I'll probably place my own hair appointments-- like, for trims and stuff(why am I overexplaining?). (I'm planning to grow the back of my hair out to my shoulders and maybe grow my fringe a bit. basically the typical emo haircut. you've seen it on my instagram. unless you haven't, but you're probably picturing the correct thing anyway.)

Another goal of mine is to get 100 subscribers on my youtube channel-- well, my eventual youtube channel. I still haven't quite worked out what I would want it to be about.

My classes for this semester are actually really fun, I'm looking forward to them! I have English, Biology(but I'm not sure if I actually want to be in the class; I'll give it a month before I decide if I want to stay or not), Creative Writing, Graphic Design and 3D Design. I honestly am like really excited for them, and I hope that my expectations aren't crushed by an awful teacher that has no idea how to teach. 

Alright, that's enough talking about myself for now. Basically, I am trying to have the time of my life before I turn 18 because I don't want my teenage years to be the thing that collapses my future. I'll let you know how it goes :P 

Let me know if you have any similar goals or if u #relate haha, would love to have more friends here :P