Strange

I can't quite explain the exact emotions I'm feeling now.   The mystery of my grocery store crush is over.  They have a girlfriend.  Without the chase, there's no reason to continue with all of this.  There's disappointment for sure.  With feelings this strong, it only makes sense.  But I don't know if I'm actually heartbroken.  Since I saw it coming.  I've never been the kind to attract romantic attention in the first place so the outcome was always evident in front of me.  But I enjoyed the what-if while it lasted.  I almost wish I could've kept the what-if so I could continue to look upon them in wonder.  But it's gone now.  So it's time to move on.  No reason to dwell on something futile.  But I have to thank them, for without them I'd never know I could feel these feelings.  It took me 19 years to have my first crush; any bets for how long it'll take till my second?