Seeing myself (TW Self-image and mental health)

I am one who has struggled with many things in my life, and there are some things I still struggle with. How I perceive myself mentally, visually, and emotionally is a huge struggle, especially with my body. I am not a fan of myself visually, even though people keep telling me that I look good, but somehow, I just can't see that. I always hate certain parts of my body, like my legs and my stomach, even though I actually have a good figure. I have struggled with food in the past, and I just can't go back to those days for the sake of my friends and mostly my boyfriend. 

My boyfriend has been taking me to the gym a lot lately, and we are the best workout buddies you will ever see. We work our a**es off! We make sure we sweat and feel great. We also make sure we get enough protein. But for the past three days, I was not able to work out because of our schedule, and I don't have a car at school. It has been messing with my mentality a lot, and I fell into a deep hole because I felt like I wasn't doing anything productive. It messed with me, and I just felt lazy. 

Let me be honest, though. I can't let any of that get to my head. I just have to remember that I don't need a gym to work out—mini home workouts work too! Even though my thighs are big, I have a hip dip, and my stomach is not as flat as it used to be, I am still beautiful, and I am working hard to be healthy! Healthy is preferable to skin and bones. So please remember that you have people who have your back all the way, and you have a beautiful body. Think of any motivation and strive for that healthy food baby that shows after you eat. And eat till you are satisfied, not until you are full. 

I love you all and stay safe!