TikTok Made Me Question My Future.

A few moments ago, while scrolling through TikTok, I ran into a video about a teacher talking about the United States teacher shortage, and it sent me into a rabbit hole of videos about teachers teaching the adults of tomorrow, which made me miss school a little bit (literally because I did school for 13 years and I'm so used to having something to do everyday), which made me think about going back to college. But that got me thinking, let's say I did get the degree I wanted online, then what? What would I do with it? The career I would totally be nervous to be in? This rabbit hole and these thoughts sent me into a bit of a mini crisis of my adulthood as I'm about to turn 20 this year. 

When I move to PA this summer, I plan on getting a job, but the career I want most is to be a Twitch streamer. 

I know, I hear your groans, giggles, and scoffs through the screen. 

I don't know, I feel it's a job I would actually be good at. I'm decent at video games, I can tell a joke or two, and I'm very good at talking to people over the internet. Look at what I'm doing right now! 

It wouldn't be my main job, I'd work at the job I'm getting this summer, and then on my days off or whenever I feel like it, I would stream. 

This dream has always been in my thoughts, but now that I'm typing it into this box of text, it feels a little silly. 

I don't know, you have to start somewhere, and I'm not really in it for the money, I just want a job that makes me happy. 

Hopefully I'll have that someday. Who knows where the wind will take me. 

Thanks for reading the bullshit I just spouted. I was missing school a bit so it made me want to write. 

xoxo, 

~Phantom