hate being back in "my" country

i was visitting my gf reccently,thats why i was gone for a while but now im back and i fucking hate it.i live in germany and she lives in poland,i wish we never moved to germany bc of that. i hate living here for so many reasons,one is the thing i already mentioned,but another reason is smth i bet a lot of immigrants can relate to,its like...here im seen as polish,but in my country,my own people see me as a german,and i dont feel home here or there bc of that (tbh its even worse when germans think im german bc i dont associate with them and feel like them at all) idk it just fucking sucks being here in this place,this isnt my place yk what i mean?