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i'm going platinum blonde on friday the 13th

i finally cut off that toxic ass friendship i was talking about a few days ago. we've known each other for almost 3 years now but i feel like the only reason i kept going back to him was becuase i wanted his validation so bad but now i don't anymore. i confronted him about how i felt because i just felt very under-valued and not cared about even though this is not a new discussion and ive told him ive felt this way since we met ive just been tolerating the treatment ig. i find myself sitting and thinking to myself "what am i missing?" is there something wrong with me that makes me so forgetable? ive known this guy for almost three whole years and yet if i ghost him for 2-3 days its like nothing has changed. he doesnt feel worried about me or care to even say hello, give me a call, or ask if something is wrong when ive been nonexistent for days. all he said was "lilly are u dead" and my name is lily not lilly. it was a slap in the face and i snapped i decided i did not want to be friends anymore. sure i feel a teensy bit like a piece of me is missing i really put a lot of trust and value into him but i also felt empty with him around. im at peace with my decision to cut things off i dont need to be wasting energy on people who could care less about me its 2023 change is in order. i dont want to keep contributing to the same vicious stupid cycle that makes me super self-conscious and insecure. but yeah its finally over. ive been wanting to bleach my hair for months but was too scared of what other people would think about it but i do not care. bleaching my hair blonde is a decision i am making for myself i need the change i need to get out of my comfort zone and do new things. i cant keep having other people suck the energy out of me i need to do things for myself to make me feel happy and good. anyways thats pretty much the update i also think its important to note that i dropped my phone on my face only 2 weeks post-op from a septoplasty so i have been in a lot of pain lmao. 


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lots of words but cool! maybe platinum blonde isnt a great color though, if i was to go dye my hair it would have to be green


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welp too late i am a blonde but i love it my hair is silvery white almost and its so cool ive gotten a ton of compliments

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