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intrusive thoughts have been kicking my absolute ass all day -- it's nothing new, nothing special, no pity please. but, i've been trying to cope -- somewhat -- by listening to music. because it's kind of the only thing i know how to do when this happens, most of my intrusive thoughts aren't exactly the kind of thing you make art about.

so! let's talk shop. most of what i've been listening to lately is shout by devo (album), nothing to fear by oingo boingo (album), wild planet by the b-52's (album), gina young, abba, sleater-kinney, dolly parton and the songs/artists on my sam playlist, my dean playlist, and my cas playlist. because i'm a cringefail loser with a supernatural hyperfixation in the year of our lord 2023.

the cas playlist is a work in progress, the sam & dean playlists are older, so don't judge it too harshly. also the winner takes it all is on there because if you just rip out the third verse entirely, it has fucking astronomical levels of late seasons deancas energy and you can fight me on that. i will fight you on that.

anyway yeah, i've mostly been listening to older music? which i'm not mad about. just tonight i listened the x-ray specs first release, their live album from 1977 (don't quote me on that i'm not positive it was '77) while working on some clothes i've been sewing. it was rad.

i think i might start looking for a cassette tape recorder -- i could probably find one on ebay pretty easily -- and start making custom tapes/mixtapes, since i got a portable tape player at goodwill a little while back that still works and like, i don't know. i just think it'd be fun to have physical versions of some of my playlists. emphasis some, because most of my playlists are giant and long but like, y'know. it'd be rad, i think, to have like. a version of a playlist that i can hold in my hands.

anyway, i can hear my dad's alarm going off for him to get up for work, which means i definitely need to go to bed. thank you for indulging me if you read this <3

xoxo,
-patch