Struggling

I'm struggling so hard right now with my goals, I know what they are and how to reach them, but getting there. That's my problem, with holidays right  around the corner its hard. A little about why its hard for me is because july 2020 i lost my father to a brain tumor, Halloween was his favorite holiday and the past 2 years just hasnt felt festive. neither has thanksgiving or christmas. then school on top of all this doesnt make it much better.