early jan life update

1st n 4most, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! :D

i already made a bulletin buuut i wanna say again
shoutouts to my friends for making 2022, and the years b4 that, enjoyable! yall are really cool n i appreciate you guyz, thanks 4 being my friends (even when im being a total loser) <3

im going back to normal school starting,,,  tomorrow,,,
they havent given me my schedule or anything yet (cause theyre nerds >:p) but its w/e bc i have to go in early anyway for my student ID
im kinda nervous, other teenagers r kinda batshit insane plus i generally have bad intrusive/paranoid thoughts so im scared of something bad happening all tha gd time
it does not help i live in America
im also nervous abt my mental health which, as we all know, has not been fairing well recently

in homeschool, i was less anxious and all, but i spaced out a lot and wld have entire days or weeks go blank. it made doing schoolwork a pain bc i cld barely focus and then i wld get super behind like last year. 
I wont have that problem in normal school, but the main reason i left in the first place was because i was genuinely thinking of committing and i hated waking up so much i was late a lot ( moreso i made my sibling late a lot n id get there on time)

so in a nutshell, im scared of getting hurt, doing bad in school, and becoming that badly self destructive again. but!! i am really excited to see my friends again and to have classes i dont hate as much as freshman bio
i actually really liked biology but we had a project that i not only had zero interest in at the time, but i physically cld not get myself to do it and i WOULD fail the class if i didnt do it

im gonna have t redownload the campus map tho </3 i only have the locations of my freshman year classes memorized so i wont have a clue where anything is this semester
hopefully ill share a good amnt of classes w friends so they can help me out (im so behind in spanish and algebra 2 it is agonizing)
(im also behind in physics but its ok im smart and good at math)

im taking the normal classes for now, but maybe next year i can pick up a few honors or ap classes bc i know im smart enough to do well in those classes

in other news ive been really into adventure time recently
i watched the first like 6 seasons in just a lil over a week all together n i love it so so much
finn is literally me except im not a creep towards the ppl i like (i do get mildly obsessed but its fine its whatever we just share the same symptoms of the same disorder its whatevs)
i think its kidna funny how the show started off with a kid n his magic dog fucking arnd and then as the show progresses it just keeps getting darker and darker
like,,,
the lich, the apocalypse/wars that happened previously, marceline and simon's backstories, finns past and alternate lives, finns general trauma ( which cntinues getting worse), finn's vault, finn's dad, bmo's origin, the crown's origin, jakes birth, lsp in breezy.....
the shows kind of fucked up but its still fun and the characters are awesome 
im going to cry once i rewatche the ending but that just means that it was good i suppose

ok yeah i think thats it, ill see yall later mothers fuckers and others