new year:stream of consciousnezzzzz:just a feeling

i get in this way in life where i cannot accept myself as i am 

i get so unhappy with the way i feel 

it’s crazy to think that the secret is really just looking and seeing beauty 

and moving towards love 

and just feeling

i don’t need to be doing anything as much as it sometimes seems like i do 

i don’t need to be cleaning or exercising or making anything for anyone to see 

i don’t need to be looking better, i don’t need to buy more clothes. 

i don’t even have to look for myself because i’m always here right up in my own face 

vanity for survivals sake 

my words are nothin but oracular 

you can take me at face value or not