I'm feeling bad right now.

I don't think I've been this sad in a while. My family is asleep or just doesn't care about new years this year. Every other year it was a big celebration with a lot of family. We watched the ball drop all together one year. But this year, I'm alone. I'm just sitting on my computer, spending the holiday alone. Even my sister said it's not that big of a deal. I just don't understand.