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My Story
I woke up in a white room I'm groggy in the head
confused but to my surprise I was in a hospital bed
with tubes in my nose and down the back of my neck
I couldn't understand the situation so I had to reflect
what had happened to for me to end up in this place i dislike
I'm distorted and lost thinking deeply into the night
I cant have deep visions as to the blurriness of my sight
started slowly fading with all the diminishing lights
All of the constant dreams and crossed up confusion
make it impossible to decipher wats real from illusion
I got needles in my body and tubes down my throat
my neck felt so hot and sore as if i was being choked
thought I was stuck in a nightmare until I fully awoke
scared of what's going on I'm finding it hard to cope
but I can tell you when I heard the story
I stared to fully understand the meaning of hope
So I thank you for letting me keep my life
and I thank you for giving me strength to fight (x3)
and I praise you for the chance to make it right
I promise it wont go in vein I'm grateful for my life
dear creator
I'm feeling angry and scared petrified and left shaking
my bodies cold and so sore I feel my soul breaking
I scream nothing no sound all I can do is pout
i even struggle to talk and still nothing comes out
try to get out of bed and i start falling to the floor
all the sudden these people in blue rush through the door
picking me up putting me back into the bed
as they do I'm getting nauseous and dizzy in the head
my knees buckle and all I remember id opening my eyes
I'm lost and so confused so scared and un amused
the doc comes in tells me that my mental state took a hit or 2
its called a borderline personality think of it as a blowing fuse
I know your in shock and this could take a minute to sink through
now I'm not saying this is going to be a walk in the park
I bet this journey thus far has been truly been tough
just know you be back on your feet and yourself soon enough
So I thank you for letting me keep my life
and I thank you for giving me strength to fight (x3)
and I praise you for the chance to make it right
I promise it wont go in vein I'm grateful for my life
dear creator
Now I can truly promise that I'm not trying to be annoying
I just cant seem to keep my mind away from soaring
around in the blank space scared tp face my futures fate
but at thus date I'm connecting with creator growing my faith
cause I guess he kept me alive it just wasn't my time
if you could see the pain and all the fears inside my eyes
from how close I came to seeing my untimely demise
leaving behind the life I build my family and my guilt
or the pain their going through and all the tears they spilled
scared for my mother not know the pain that she hides
I can tell she was scared to death from the watering of her eyes
mama I promise to fight with everything that I have inside
ill build on this weakness and I will make sure that I thrive
everyday I will walk to my destination with the proudest of strides
because today is the very first day of the rest of my life
and I'm gonna spend every minute thankful to be alive
So I thank you for letting me keep my life
and I thank you for giving me strength to fight (x3)
and I praise you for the chance to make it right
I promise it wont go in vein I'm grateful for my life
dear creator
so with that I know you all can understand if you sense any type of change within me
cuz I'm changing my life for the better and those who ride with me and support me
thank you I love you.
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