When will I feel all soft on the inside?

Oh oh oh, I miss you. I miss the way life used to feel, wide open and full of things that broke my heart and yet filled me with euphoria. I miss being passionate and soft. I miss the whirlwind way we used to love each other. I want to go back to being easy to impress and carelessly loving. Why can't I go back? Why have I been stuck here for so long? If this too shall pass, then why isn't it passing?